Momma Bean in the Mountains

So I'm doing this "Celebrate Recovery" thing... And it's been a love/hate relationship throughout the process... But I'm getting to a place now where I am beginning to see some fruit. And I wanted to share with cyberworld an incident that occurred in my life directly because of Celebrate Recovery and how God and a person who loves God showed me "Great Grace." So, Celebrate Recovery is a twelve-step program (like AA or NA) that seeks to get to the ROOTS of the weeds of behavior patterns and "Issues" that we have and live with. It seeks to access heaven and involve God in our past/present/future and help bring health, wholeness and healing to your mind, will and emotions. It's a really great program. (and for those in the Markleysburg Area, it is on Wednesday evenings at New Life Covenant Church (beside A.J.) from 6:30-8:30.) So I was involved in a "Step Study" which is a more intensive branch off of the CR prog...

It's funny to look back on things and try and remember how they were when you are so different now from where you were then?! I was thinking about the old saying, "If you love something set it free. If it comes back to you it is yours. If it doesn't, it never was." I remember wallowing in my teenage pain and misery ... the anguish of a breakup ... the utter despair in love lost. I remember well meaning adults quoting that old saying to me and I remember wanting to DIE just thinking the thought of the saying! I didn't care if it was TRUE! The hurt inside was so deep and so intense, I NEEDED this person. They were, afterall, my life support system. I was, afterall, a parasite. I remember a season in life where Chuck and I were having a bit of a rough patch ... miscommunication abounded and silent walls seemed built around me. We show love in different ways. I guess it's sort of like the "Five Love Languages" book --- you have to sp...