Momma Bean in the Mountains

Tempest tossed Worn and weary at the mercy of the cruel elements without an anchor and lost, hopelessly lost I remember one particular day - sunny and autumnal, brisk and wonderful flying through the mountains as a passenger of a sport utility vehicle. I remember no matter what was going on around me and outside of me I couldn't shake the doom and gloom and depression. I should be thrilled, enraptured with the splendor and majestic beauty around me. I sat despondent ... focused intently on the rearview mirror. For miles and miles we sat in silence as I watched things pass me from behind. I realized, with small tears forming in the corners of my eyes that this was how I had been 'doing life.' So focused on the past that I was sacrificing and losing the moment of now -- the present which is in fact a present, I left unwrapped and unopened in the backseat on the floor. It took a few years and a real encounter with the God of the universe to help me to re...

...and Absolute Crisis Reveals Absolutely. Not sure who coined that (I suspect it is from Art Katz)  but the other day while driving my dear sweet hubby quoted it to me.  Fifteen years ago I surrendered my life and my will over to Christ and cried out with all of my heart, "Take me I am yours." Over the years I have prayed many prayers, prayers of contrition, prayers of petition, prayers of joy and grief and sorrow and laughter and delight. I've prayed " Lord create in me a clean heart and renew a right spirit within me ." I've prayed, " Let my heart be broken for the things that break your heart ." I've prayed, " Let us be one Father like you and Jesus are one ." "Give me passion." "Give me fire" "Give me a submitted and willing heart" "Give me grace, courage, strength." I've asked Him to remove anything in me that is a hinderance or block from our union. I've prayed from...