Momma Bean in the Mountains

So I used to be a rag-tag, vagabond, wanderer. Skirting on the fringe of society, quite angry, truth be told. But I was always for the outcast, the lost, the downtrodden, the rebels, the hippies, the gypsys, the crazies - the non-conformists, the colorers outside of the liners. The marching the beat of their own drum-mers. Then I had a radical heart conversion and found a new life with Jesus. I tr ied really really hard to be a good girl. To learn the rules and conform - in every way possible. Jump? how high! Sit? sure thing! Crucifying my questionings and reasonings and all the things that had kept me estranged from God to begin with! I just began to learn to submit and be the  very best me  who I thought I should be! Until another radical heart encounter where God basically showed me that I still was "THAT GIRL" but I had just locked part of her away in a backroom closet. Bound and gagged, she was denied her existance. So the vision I had was me standing at the s...

Mandala Tray Tutorial Finally ladies and gentlemen... only twelve days late...but better late than never, right? first choose your wood - i am using "reclaimed" pallet panels my husband broke down for me with a sawzall -- but you could also use fresh lumber from any hardware store! Then I used my miter saw and cut the pieces (two long ones for the bottom and two smaller pieces for the top) picture to follow you will also need a sander - I prefer a palm sander but this orbital works better for rough wood for me. Also I used a brad nailer and wood glue to attach the pieces together.  I chose an oil based stain - which I applied to each individual piece and let dry for at least 24 hours before working with again -- remember to wear gloves! i use a little bit of glue and 1" brad nails to secure the trays together I found the hardware at Home Depot but Lowe's has them also  cut your vinyl image, weed it I use oracal 651...

IF AT FIRST YOU DON'T SUCCEED, TRY, TRY AGAIN. FOOD, GLORIOUS FOOD....SO HAPPY TO HAVE SOME! So for the last (no joke) DECADE God has been bringing me to the place of seeing/knowing/discerning  that  I fare much much better on a gluten free diet. Well guess what peeps? That is not easy! And I tend to gravitate toward what is easy. Also I have dopamine 'issues'. And since having to go 'off' of my Attention Deficit Disorder Medication ... Let's just say I've been 'self medicating' with CHOCOLATE, CANDY AND COCA COLA! *insert - grouchy, feeling like crap and totally addictively 'out of freaking control!' *add a dash of three weeks of glutenous gluttony and we had one unhappy momma and a family of unhappy people and a creeping back up to an all time high weight FEAR. Lord have mercy when I stepped on the scale I earnestly looked at my life and I even more earnestly cried out to my God. Then by nothing other than what I c...

So this is more a 'keep track of' for me than anything.......but it is also a GOD is so Good, come let us magnify His name together post. Hilarity. A little over two years ago I was made aware of ADD as an actual 'thing' and came to understand that I responded magnanimously to ADD medication. Enter: SUPER-FREAKING-WOMAN! Productive doesn't even begin to describe this lady that emerged from my slug-like form. Tasks? ACCOMPLISHED! Dreams and plans? FORMULATED AND CARRIED THROUGH! I pulled so many all-nighters and got more done in two years time than I probably had to show for in the five previous years. No joke. and I loved.every.second.of.it. higher than a kite I tell you --- life by the gonads INSERT: THE GREAT FAST OF 2016 Our church always does a 21 day fast at the beginning of each year - usually a Daniel Fast - no meats, no treats, no sweets.  I always found it extremely difficile so I opted for a more for me doable liquid fast.  Slimfast, ...

checkpoint---t-minus 8 hours and counting and this ole gal enters a whole new decade of life. How do I feel? Fan-freaking-tastic. Honestly. I found out at 19 Jesus WAS the Christ, the son of the living God. At 36, after a catastrophic breakdown, found out JUST HOW MUCH I NEEDED HIM (for apart from Him I truly can do nothing) and at 39 I found out I was an ARTIST? Talk about a late bloomer! ---Went  to see an amazing CRNP today (Danny Moon w/ Garrett Medical Group to anyone in that practice...he works out of Deep Creek office) waited literally, no joke over 3 hours, but HE IS WORTH waiting for  smile emoticon  --- in fact I might even make him a keychain that says that  smile emoticon  (or an office sign out of pallet wood!) --- but we laughed and I told him I feel better (mentally and emotionally and even physically than I ever have in my entire life!) --- but because of a few physical reminders that I actually *AM* turning 40 -- I left with the receptionist ...

So I HAVE to give a shout out to just HOW AMAZING and REAL God is. Okay -- I know that I am nothing without Him and apart from Him I can do nothing! -- having said that ---- Christ IN ME is the hope of glory. --- OKAY, so this past weekend I got to visit a fellowship of believers in another geographical region and I had never been to this place before so I literally knew nobody! (except my friend who I RECENTLY met, who took me) Well this non-denominational gathering of believers had a team of pastors during worship/music time in front say "we believe in calling the elders, anointing with oil and that the prayer of faith can heal the sick" so they called anyone sick in mind/heart/body to come up. I kind of fell in line behind, because I really like to lay my hands on the sick and pray for them (because in the bible we are told to? and I have seen miracles...it's cool... but anyway ...) this one couple went up and I wasn't sure who was sick? the dude or the chic...