Disclaimer:

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I've had a few people suggest that I blog.
I just want to say up front that I feel inadequate to do this.
I don't really feel like a gifted writer,
and I don't really feel particularly inspired at this juncture of life,
But, having said that:
if anyone is just interested in the good, the bad and
the ugly reality of the
life of Momma Bean... Here goes.

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